Gloomy Friday

It was one of the worst morning I ever had. Hubby did not sleep well as he was super stressed out with his assignment that was due today and he had not finished. A lot of whining, frustrations, venting of anger and helplessness. Only God is the rescuer for today. Prayed for hubby and hopefully the lecturer can give him grace to extend his submission date.

Wanted to go marketing to whip up a meal tonight but guessed the unpleasant incident this morning got hold of me before I could prepare myself for the day. Took out the salmon fillet and thought of making teriyaki salmon for lunch to alleviate my mood a little.

Called up the gynae for the 2nd appt tomorrow morning. Hopefully everything will be fine with the foetus and the ultrasound should be able to detect the water bag and foetus. Rather nervous but God is in control. So far so good, no morning sickness and nausea. God is good and gracious. :)

After giving the home a total revamp, I am now having terrible back pain..excruciating pain at the lower back. That's my so called reward for keeping the house spick and span..:(

Current mood: Tired and hopeful

Time to make our home a home!

Today, I'm feeling alot better. Ate my breakfast and vitamins and feeling recharged, ready to face the day.Hopefully, I can accomplish lots of things...wash, scrub, clean,pack etc. Talk about it, it's going to be a long day. One of the ways to make hubby feels better from school is to come back to a clean and inviting home. Pray that my nose will not give me sinus problems from the dust that is going to fly around. I will be careful as well as I wouldn't want to hurt the little one in my tummy. :)

Heard from the news it's going to rain cats and dogs today...God, do send the rain away from my area so that my clothes can dry on time. Time to go...if not, I will become lazy and tired again if I don't keep myself going!

Current mood: Energetic

PMS!!!!!!!

I dun know what's wrong with me. I am just restless, bored and irritated. Guess fell off the wrong side of the bed this morning. Hubby's not at home and started to miss him badly. He has been having hard time adjusting to his sleeping patterns, catching up with his school work and all these are just tiring him out. Poor Dar, you need to press on in God's strength.

As for me, I needed to buck myself up. No more lazing ard, no more groaning and whining...just do it...

*Sigh*

Hated today...It could have been better.........

Current mood: restless

Lesson 1: Start reading pregnancy books

Today, I had a wonderful time catching up with Lena and her little baby boy Issac. Just bid my company goodbye in the morning before joining Lena for lessons on what to expect next in being a Mum Wanabe. Hearing her experiences on how she dealt with her first trimester and what she did to cope her anxieties gave me a sense of assurance that I will be fine as well. It's all about learning from people, picking yourself up when mistakes are made and read lots of books to prepare yourself physically and mentally. Reviews and opinions on Dr Adrian were being discussed and somehow I knew I would most likely choose him as my Gynae for my little baby. I believe that with his vast experience and good reviews from forumers and even from my friends and colleages do earn him great credibility and trust. I know I would be in good hands. Anyway, I left Lena's place full of treats in my hands, yah pregnancy books and magazines. When will I be able to finish I wonder?

Hubbby was so sweet to give me a call, asking me to join him for dinner and we headed for our favourite fish soup stall. Yup, I needed to eat more fish as I just learnt that fish is rich in DHA which is good for the baby's neuro development.

Feeling very lethargic now as if my bones are giving way anytime.....Sigh....hopefully God will take away any morning sickness from me...I wouldn't want to puke for 9 months like some of my friends did.....It's going to be very tough......

Looking forward for my next scan.....

Dear God, bless this child and in your hands, mould the child into your likeness. Protect the child and see through his/her every development (brain, organs, limbs, arms etc) that he/she may be healthy and beautiful. We thank you for this miracle baby at your divine appointment, we commit this child into your hands and may each stage of my pregnancy be smooth and joyful. Amen!

Visit to Gynae

29 Mar 2008 1015hrs

Hubby and I woke up excitedly for a trip down to the gynae nearby. Long queue but managed to see Doc Adrian within 5 mins for the first time. Did a scan, found nothing, Doc explained that it was still early, probably only in week 4. Wanted us to come back again next week for a second scan and hopefully we should be able to see water bag and foetus.

Doc Adrian was very fast in his speech and consultation. Unless you have questions, if not he would close the session. I was quite uncomfortable at first as for a new mum to be who was ignorant and clueless, I needed to be briefed more on what to expect. Well, I can say he is straightforward and experienced but he gave me the impression he is always in a rush. But was surprised that he gave us his handphone number and told us we could call him anytime if we needed help or have fiery questions to ask.

This is something interesting and heartwarming cause you know he will be there and not all docs give their personal handphone number. At least a sense of security sets deep in my heart.

So let's wait for a week more....

Current mood: Excited

OMG!

28 March 2008 2215hrs

OMG! It was confirmed. No turning back, No regrets, Lost, Perplexed, Bewildered.........Arghhhhhhhhhh.....It was positive. Yup...I am pregnant....!
So what's next?

Called Hubby and he gave an amusing reply.

Wifey: Dear, I am pregnant. It's positive.
Hubby: How do you know? haha
Wifey: Aiyo, pregnancy kit lah
Hubby: Oh really...but how did you test it? How does it works?
Wifey: Duh?!!!!!!
Hubby: Ha ha coming back now....Ha Ha you are pregnant...haha

Upon reaching home.
Hubby: Hi dear, where is the pregnancy kit? Why positive? so what does it means?
Wifey: Sigh...you should be saying, 'Yeah I am a father!!!!!'
Hubby: *Grin*

What a night!
Current mood: Lost, Shocked

Not the end, but a new beginning!

Woa! back in action..MIA for so long as I needed to be alone thinking thru lots of things and sorting out my life...

Finally, I have finished and graduated from Tung Ling Bible College! The three months were super refreshing..total desperation to total revival! What to expect? Great frens, powerful lessons and inspiring lecturers, loving Dean and spiritually renewed!

I felt touched and thankful that God gave me this opportunity to seek him so intimately in Tung Ling. I learnt so much about God and hearing His voice and being assured of what He has planned for me to do in His kingdom was one that I have been seeking for so long.

I have made wonderful frens, frens who stood by me these three months, frens who are so sincere and genuine, frens who reprimanded me and guided me in my walk with God, frens who inspired me thru their own testimonies, frens whom I can have evelasting frenship with, frens who changed my life totally...FRENS...

Frens who impacted my life lots were the foreign students and these are the ones whom I am closest to. They are unique and I will never ever be able to made such frens who are really God sent ones.

1) Pastor Suresh from India : Sensitive, Caring, a great Mentor and powerful prayer intercessor in my life. Sacrificial love shown to me and Samuel..He is my spiritual father! I love him lots!

2) Wendy from Taiwan: Trustworthy, dependable, my emotional support and my confidate. I can share anything, anyway and she is still there for me despite my short-comings. Genuine and sincere...I love you Wendy! Thanks for the love and care you have shown me!

3) Hilda from Indonesia: Sweet, encouraging, a heart of gold, kind and loving. She is another fren whom I can trust and share my life with. She cares and loves me lots. We laugh and joke and talk about anything under the sun. I miss you Hilda! Press on for the Lord.

4) Mary and Christina from Myammar: My great buddy Mary and my baby Christina, both are simple and kind. Though they don't speak much but they always keep me in prayers. I learnt simplicity and discipline from them. They are very disciplined in their walk with God and their servant hearts for God is amazing..Inspired to be like them!

5) John from Sri Lanka: Great brother, Young and strong, A heart after God..Faithful and kind. Missed his smiles and he is a fantastic angel. Brought me so many things to keep me a mortal happy..thanks Angel!

6) Coco from Hong Kong: She is special in my heart. A new christian, ready to embark a new journey in pursuing GOd and His call in her life. I see so much changed in her since she first stepped into Tung Ling and now graduated with so much zeal, love and faith in God. She blessed me with so much, not material but her life testimonies, her love and prayers for me, her struggles which I can minister to...her desire to grow in the Lord...I treasure this special fren! CoCo...continue to run the race well with God! He will blessed you abundantly!

It's not the end, it is now a new beginning for me..I trust, obey and believe that my life will be transformed and I will make a difference in the lives of others! Let me be a blessing to others...let me be a Woman of God!

The journey begins.......................