Disturbed Rest but Renewed Mind

Last night was terrible. Hubby was preparing his sermon till wee hours and was tossing and turning the whole night in bed. I was not able to sleep well either as the nasal back drip caused me to cough the whole night. As much as I could remember, I slept around 3am. This morning, was awakened by hubby as he was rushing to church, the cool weather was just so tempting for me to catch more rest. However, I told myself I need to go to the market to get some groceries to prepare for dinner as I am not going to my Mum's place. I dragged myself off bed and headed off to the wet market. Hate it, it was so crowded. Grabbed the things needed and got home in time to catch the sermon online. Was advised to stay home thus I did not attend church. Well, no excuse to ignore God on a Sunday morning so prepared myself a warm breakfast and listened attentively to the sermon online.

Today's sermon was inspiring. It's about our purpose in life and how we can make a difference by penetrating into the market place. We are not called to be Christian to just have eternal life. Jesus came not only to save us but to penetrate into the society to bring the awareness of God to the people. We are also not called to change the pple in our four walls but to penetrate into the marketplace to change the values and to raise the standards of the society. Chim leh...

Each of us have certain gifts and anointing from God. We need to pray and asked God to show us his purpose in our lives. Thru this, we make use of our gifts to serve him and fulfill that purpose. It just strikes me at that point on how much I know about myself and my gifts. How much I know about God's direction and purpose in my life and whether I am submissive and obedient enough to take that step of faith to listen to His calling. Sad to say, not really. In fact, I have been worrying about my life from the pros and cons of being a full time homemaker, the financial situation I might be in since I am not longer financially independent by then, the fears of bringing up a child in God's likeness and whether Hubby will have time with me and my child during his studies. Too many concerns, too many worries, too many what if...Lack of Faith and Trust. ..Got reminded again that thru man indeed it is impossible but thru God, everything is possible. Time to reflect and start praying for God's direction in my life. Fears comes from Satan and not God. God is my strength and my refuge, everything He plans is in his perfect timing and definitely works for the best in us! Will you join me and keep me in your prayers? :O)

Time to take a short nap before Hubby comes back to clean the house. *snore* so tired.........

Current mood: inspired